I was a Baha'i child in the 70s and 80s in Australia.
My father is Australian born of Irish background and my mother was born in Wales of Austrian Jewish and English background.
I knew from quite a young age that I was different.
Every person who is born gay, knows this.
I loved being in the Baha'i communities I had grown up with.
I loved prayer. I loved teaching. I loved almost everything about the Faith.
I wanted so much to be a Baha'i that I hid my attraction for men.
When I was 18 I met a girl who was a little older than me. She was not a Baha'i but has a beautiful soul.
I wanted to go travel teaching around the world and I wanted her to come with me.
So she became a Baha'i and we got married. I was 19.
It really was very stupid to get married so young. We were divorced by the time I was 22.
I am now 40 and looking back I know I only did it because I wanted to be accepted by my family and the Baha'i community.
After the divorce I went into my shell for a little while and did some 'soul searching'.
I realized that I was gay. I knew that I was gay. I know with every fibre of my being that I was born this way.
I withdrew from the Baha'i community shortly after the divorce and have slowly but surely lost contact with every single Baha'i I ever knew.
This was a deliberate action by me as I felt I could not live in a community that thinks I have an 'illness'.
I don't believe that Baha'u'llah and God would condemn homosexuality.
I believe in a truly loving and caring world as envisaged by all the great prophets, homosexuality would be accepted as normal. Homosexuals would be able to love and raise families like everybody else.