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Breaker of Hearts

I met these following Hands of the Cause of God: Mr. Furutan, 'Amat'u'l-Baha, Mr. Khadem, and Jason Robarts. I was close to Dr. Stanwood Cobb. I drove Mrs. Muhajir (daughter of Hand of the Cause, Mr. Furutan, and wife of Hand of the Cause Dr. Muhajir) back to her home after Dr. Firuz Kazemzadeh gave a eulogy speech for Dr. Muhajir in Brighton, MA in 1980. I missed seeing Hand of the Cause Bill Sears in Worcester by a couple days. I am gay. My first fireside was at Baha'i psychiatrist Dr. Sam McLellan's home in North Cambridge, where I also met Dr. Frank Handel, M.D., another Baha'i psychiatrist. I saw the Moon Landing in 1969 from Fellowship House at Green Acre with the mother of who was to become my psychiatrist when I started to deal with being what is impossible: being both gay and a Baha'i. That was the Baha'i mother of Dr. Anselm Schurgast, MD, a Baha'i psychiatrist. Because of the impossible soul-wrenching struggle of being what I am, gay, and of choosing my religion as a teenager, Baha'i, I have a psychiatric condition called "ego-dystonic homosexuality," where I cannot accept myself as a decent person...a good person. It's getting better. I left the Faith in Year 2001. I got my Ph.D. in psychology in 1995. I was unlawfully deprived of my Voting Rights in 1974, just before I went to medical school abroad. That hurt me very much. The Universal House of Justice acknowledged that my Administrative Rights had been removed in an improper manner for no valid reason and it restored them to me when I returned from medical school. That same community of Baha'is yet again requested the NSA of the United States to remove my Voting Rights in 1987 at first, "because 'he' is gay," but when that didn't work, they changed their reason to: "he creates disunity among the Baha'is even when he is not present." They meant that the Baha'is could not deal with the topic I bring to them: homosexuality. I am their symbol of being gay in that "small little town." I have attempted to get my Voting Rights back in every way I know, ever since 1987 and I was never able to get them back. Strangely enough I was allowed to attend Feasts only but nothing else from 1993-1996. Then I was not allowed to even attend Feasts, yet again. I know that the Baha'is do discriminate against gays. They allow homophobia and anti-gay discrimination people who become Baha'is run rampant, and the Baha'i Administration makes no effort to separate this personal prejudice from its members as it tries to do with other forms of prejudice, such as racial prejudice. I have to flee from the Baha'i Faith for safety. If you have a problem, don't bring it to the Baha'is. They will hurt you. That is what I have learned. I pray 'Abdu'l-Baha will see what has been going on and make things better for gay Baha'is. I can never tell you how much I have been hurt by the Baha'is. They are nothing like 'Abdu'l-Baha. They have even ceased trying to be like Him, which is what He wanted them to try: "Be like Me; follow Me; be like I am." Shame on them! It's just like their Prophet, Baha'u'llah was so hurt by His Babi Community that He left them all to live in a cave in the mountains of Sullimaniyyih. In 3 years the Babi Faith had become a sea of discord. What a Baha'u'llah's Cause. "Baha'is just don't get it!" says Dr. Anselm Schurgast, M.D. of Meriden, CT. "Since when have the Baha'is ever followed what Baha'u'llah taught them," he said. "If they had, the whole world would have become Baha'i in Baha'u'llah's time." I am still hurt. I wonder how many more souls these "godly people" will hurt before they get it...before they learn. How are "they" going to "save the world"? Dr. Schurgast agreed that Baha'u'llah did say, "if the Baha'is do not heed my Words, God will create a new race of men." Is that what is happening now?



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