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I am a 40 year old gay Baha'i. I ran way from home at 16 after fighting with my Baha'i parents about my sexuality and immersed myself in the sydney gay scene. I will not go into those days because some of it was Great and some of it was not so great but the whole time I was seeking for god, a god that accepts me as I am and loves me for me. I did not find this anywhere though came close with a form of the Goddess that wicca provides but it never felt right. I was brought up Baha'i.. Baha'u'llah's message had made in me something I could not ignore but I was gay........ stepping back to 13 my sexual awakening and the anguish that it brought I cried myself to sleep each night calling god to help me please I don't want to be like that.... he never answered never helped... or so I thought...... skip again to 38 my mum died (btw been talking to her before hand about my sexuality and my faith) "Me: mum i'm not a Baha'i how can I be i'm gay. Mum: you believe in Baha'u'llah don't you. Me: yes. Mum: then you're a Baha'i."  At her funeral i'm crying bawling actually sitting beside my dad who is the most wonderful man that ever lived and my brother we're 3 boys in tears together United in our grief. I look up at the sign of Yahbahullah and ask god to be with my mother. When I was torn by grief I turned to Baha'u'llah no other. I have since moved back to my home town on the south east coast of nsw to be with my dad I am a practising Baha'i and the Baha'is I know know that I'm gay I am loved and respected by them. I now understand that it's between me and god and if i'm wrong God will Forgive I'm sure as long as I try to further his cause and live an upstanding a pure life (I have committed to my partner and he is considering confirming his faith as well) then god will let me enter into his presence. As for the official stance by the UHJ, i'm not going into that I pray god help in that matter and his will be done not mine I love baha'u'llah and I love my husband.

geoffrey Arnold

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